So... some days ago I´ve told about my experience about alcool... Why not talking about my experience about boys? Lets start by saying that I never had a boyfriend (or maybe had one.. for about 5 hours or something...).
Until 17 year I have never been kissed. Boys wouldn´t never even try to look my way. And that doesn´t surprise me at all: I simply panicked whenever I was too close to a boy. Still, I thought about meeting new people on line.. I thought it would be great to develop what I understood about boys... And it had it´s results: I´ve understood that the way I am is absolutely impossible to pool with relationships. Boys needed a lame girl that would roll in snot while saying how much you love and that you are thinking day and night about them... It simply was´nt for me, so that experience just made me sadder, because I could´nt say that I love someone so quickly!!
But still, one day, I met a boy on line which was pretty cool... And after speaking a long time, he asked me to go to a public place, just to get to know better.. Although it was the first time I would ever met someone I met on line, i still said yes.. why not? I was about to go to hight school and did´nt even kiss!!! So I went.. but what I thought it would be was really far from it were.
So, we met next to a supermarket, and had a walk.. long walk.. he was very nervous, oh, and he was funny and beautiful too :P. He took me to a hidden place and we continued talking.. I was sitting while he was walking from one point to another... Then asked me about the kiss I´ve owed him (When we said goodbye on the interned, he send me a kiss, and I did´nt send him one, I´ve told I would give him one when I would be with him xD). Anyway, the true is that I was nervous too, so I´ve simply changed the conversation (I´m pretty good at it muahahha!!), but after a while he repaired and asked me again.. then asked me if I would be able to do the first step.... but I said no, so he simply get closer to me and I´ve saw it like a movie.. everything was so painfully slow that I could´nt continue waiting, and simply kissed him.. a simple, fast kiss. But, the worst part is that after this I´ve laughed.... and that confused him very much, he even asked me what happened. I said it´s simply because I was very nervous, and kissed him again, this time much longer.. he was a great kisser, but we were there for too long... I remember I´ve looked several times to the watch, because I wanted to get home earlier that my parents. I said I needed to go home, he asked me to stay with him just for some more minutes.... I thought why not? and stayed.
But the true is that he wanted much more from me... and that I could´nt understand (I´m a virgin, and I would never think about it!!!). He started to slowly trying to take off my shirt, but I said no (I would´nt have sex in such place, whit someone I did´nt know enough, it simply was´nt write!). He said he just wanted to touch... So I´ve though: I went there just because I wanted to get some experience.. this was experience too.. and I would continue being virgin.. so... why not? :P
The continue I can´t explain... but the true is that I liked it a lot, and I was home earlier then my parents :)
The second boy I´ve met at bus stop... we talked a lot.. and after some days we went out together. We kissed too, but after a while I understood I wanted to go simply go home and do´nt say a word to him... so I did it. P.S. this was about 3 days after my first kiss... And it was still summer holidays.
The third boy I met while I was going on a small boat with a friend of mine, his boyfriend, and that boy. That was about 2 days after the last boy. We were going to the middle of the river to catch some sea stuff to sell it later. The plan was to swim while they are working, then go to a park, have dinner and go home. The plan looked really simple, but there were a problem: I´m intimidated about my body... and I did´nt want to anyone see it...
Anyway, the boys found a good place, stopped the boat, and jumped into the water. After that, okcana (the girl) looked at me and asked me why I still had´nt take out the dress (she was already only in the swimsuit), so I took it off, but immediately after jumped into the water... They were really surprised, because normal girls would get into the water in 5 minutes or even more...
But the reason why I did it was to not show my body... not to tell that I´m ugly... I realize I have great shapes (It´s what I hear many times), but I was´nt very happy with my body... I wanted to get slimmer (that part does´nt matter to me anymore.. I started to like myself just the way I am), but there were something I really hated about my body : stretch marks on my chest... and that was really frustrating, because I had big boobs, but because of the stretch marks, I since 15 years old I never used cleavage.
Anyway.. after a long swim, I tried to get in the boat, but I could´nt, it only seemed very easy, the true is that you need a lot of muscles to get in. So they had to push us inside... I understood that then they would see all my body, but I´ve thought that what the heck?? If they want to see, then let them see, I am not that type of girl which would let they´re scare to control the situation!!! That´s why when he pulled me out, I´ve was just standing for about one minute, so that they could see me from all the angles, and then finally sat down with my towel around me... I remember that then I was sooooo happy for having my soft towel there. That was true love between me and the towel :P. While we were still at the boat I asked okcana how I looked, and surprise: I looked great, and there was no sign from the stretch marks (yap, sometimes they are invisible, but not always.. why????). But that was already wery good for me :).
After, we went to the park, write after passing at some stores to buy food and drinks (and hearing a boy trying to flirt with me, which made the friend of the boyfriend of okcana jealous). There, we had a great talk, after I was kissing with him (I do´nt even remember his name... ) I said we needed to get home and sanded up, but he several times pushed me down, which was very irritating. After a while, we went inside the car and started going home, but when I´ve got home, i realized I had a hickey on my neck.. The next day I´ve broke everything with him.
The fourth and last for the summer I´ll tell in another day.
Until 17 year I have never been kissed. Boys wouldn´t never even try to look my way. And that doesn´t surprise me at all: I simply panicked whenever I was too close to a boy. Still, I thought about meeting new people on line.. I thought it would be great to develop what I understood about boys... And it had it´s results: I´ve understood that the way I am is absolutely impossible to pool with relationships. Boys needed a lame girl that would roll in snot while saying how much you love and that you are thinking day and night about them... It simply was´nt for me, so that experience just made me sadder, because I could´nt say that I love someone so quickly!!
But still, one day, I met a boy on line which was pretty cool... And after speaking a long time, he asked me to go to a public place, just to get to know better.. Although it was the first time I would ever met someone I met on line, i still said yes.. why not? I was about to go to hight school and did´nt even kiss!!! So I went.. but what I thought it would be was really far from it were.
So, we met next to a supermarket, and had a walk.. long walk.. he was very nervous, oh, and he was funny and beautiful too :P. He took me to a hidden place and we continued talking.. I was sitting while he was walking from one point to another... Then asked me about the kiss I´ve owed him (When we said goodbye on the interned, he send me a kiss, and I did´nt send him one, I´ve told I would give him one when I would be with him xD). Anyway, the true is that I was nervous too, so I´ve simply changed the conversation (I´m pretty good at it muahahha!!), but after a while he repaired and asked me again.. then asked me if I would be able to do the first step.... but I said no, so he simply get closer to me and I´ve saw it like a movie.. everything was so painfully slow that I could´nt continue waiting, and simply kissed him.. a simple, fast kiss. But, the worst part is that after this I´ve laughed.... and that confused him very much, he even asked me what happened. I said it´s simply because I was very nervous, and kissed him again, this time much longer.. he was a great kisser, but we were there for too long... I remember I´ve looked several times to the watch, because I wanted to get home earlier that my parents. I said I needed to go home, he asked me to stay with him just for some more minutes.... I thought why not? and stayed.
But the true is that he wanted much more from me... and that I could´nt understand (I´m a virgin, and I would never think about it!!!). He started to slowly trying to take off my shirt, but I said no (I would´nt have sex in such place, whit someone I did´nt know enough, it simply was´nt write!). He said he just wanted to touch... So I´ve though: I went there just because I wanted to get some experience.. this was experience too.. and I would continue being virgin.. so... why not? :P
The continue I can´t explain... but the true is that I liked it a lot, and I was home earlier then my parents :)
The second boy I´ve met at bus stop... we talked a lot.. and after some days we went out together. We kissed too, but after a while I understood I wanted to go simply go home and do´nt say a word to him... so I did it. P.S. this was about 3 days after my first kiss... And it was still summer holidays.
The third boy I met while I was going on a small boat with a friend of mine, his boyfriend, and that boy. That was about 2 days after the last boy. We were going to the middle of the river to catch some sea stuff to sell it later. The plan was to swim while they are working, then go to a park, have dinner and go home. The plan looked really simple, but there were a problem: I´m intimidated about my body... and I did´nt want to anyone see it...
Anyway, the boys found a good place, stopped the boat, and jumped into the water. After that, okcana (the girl) looked at me and asked me why I still had´nt take out the dress (she was already only in the swimsuit), so I took it off, but immediately after jumped into the water... They were really surprised, because normal girls would get into the water in 5 minutes or even more...
But the reason why I did it was to not show my body... not to tell that I´m ugly... I realize I have great shapes (It´s what I hear many times), but I was´nt very happy with my body... I wanted to get slimmer (that part does´nt matter to me anymore.. I started to like myself just the way I am), but there were something I really hated about my body : stretch marks on my chest... and that was really frustrating, because I had big boobs, but because of the stretch marks, I since 15 years old I never used cleavage.
Anyway.. after a long swim, I tried to get in the boat, but I could´nt, it only seemed very easy, the true is that you need a lot of muscles to get in. So they had to push us inside... I understood that then they would see all my body, but I´ve thought that what the heck?? If they want to see, then let them see, I am not that type of girl which would let they´re scare to control the situation!!! That´s why when he pulled me out, I´ve was just standing for about one minute, so that they could see me from all the angles, and then finally sat down with my towel around me... I remember that then I was sooooo happy for having my soft towel there. That was true love between me and the towel :P. While we were still at the boat I asked okcana how I looked, and surprise: I looked great, and there was no sign from the stretch marks (yap, sometimes they are invisible, but not always.. why????). But that was already wery good for me :).
After, we went to the park, write after passing at some stores to buy food and drinks (and hearing a boy trying to flirt with me, which made the friend of the boyfriend of okcana jealous). There, we had a great talk, after I was kissing with him (I do´nt even remember his name... ) I said we needed to get home and sanded up, but he several times pushed me down, which was very irritating. After a while, we went inside the car and started going home, but when I´ve got home, i realized I had a hickey on my neck.. The next day I´ve broke everything with him.
The fourth and last for the summer I´ll tell in another day.
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